So, as of about a month ago I started seeing a psychologist. I feel very nervous when I'm around him, but that's nothing new, I feel that way around a lot of people. His diagnosis for me was Major depression with a 2 episodes as well as dysthemic disorder. For some reason I'm not sure if that's accurate. For instance: I was proposed to on Mother's Day, I said yes, no crying (yet, I'm usually a VERY emotional person). I'm scared to tell anyone that I'm engaged, even my mother. I'm not sure why this is. My coworker saw my ring and congratulated me, and acted so excited, but I thought to myself, why am I not so excited about this like I should be. Aren't all women excited about marriage? I want to be able to be excited for things, but for some reason it's like it's not possible. Why am I holding back the emotions that I should be letting loose?