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Originally Posted by Lizzie1813
I cried during church today as I have every Sunday for the past two months. It’s so embarrassing to lose control like that. As I mentioned on the “sensitivity” thread, every message has triggered me because they seem to hit me in my pain about my son’s estrangement. Today’s message was, “Does God give us too much to handle?” For me, the answer is, “Yes!” I’m sinking in spite of meds, my pdoc trying to help, and weekly therapy. Not sure what I can do. I’m sorry if this post is triggering for people. It’s not intentional. I just need to get this out.
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Lizzie my heart breaks for you
My T told me over 10 years ago when my life literally imploded .. which is why I was seeing him weekly.. I cried and cried for numerous sessions and one day he reached over and put his hand on my arm and said its time to " Float" " Just float don't try to over analyze and obsess about things that right now you have zero control over"
Honestly I thought he was out of his mind, I'm a mess and he is not telling me how to manage things??? any kind of coping skill???? He didn't tell me that things would eventually work out???
That night I had been thinking hard about him telling me to float all damn day.. The only entry in my journal that night was " Float"
Sometimes we are fighting so hard to swim upstream against the current that nothing we are doing is helping, We are mentally and physically exhausted. So maybe throw your hands up and know that things are going to change. Maybe not when you want them too ( like right now) but things will.
You have been beating yourself up for long enough. Try and float give your mind a break, Just breath
