Hey all,

Thought I'd write an update: I was terribly depressed this week, and the positive effect of that was that I could talk more in group. Go figure. I've heard that depression and anxiety tend to be opposites, so if you become more of one you become less of the other. My T described it as the Scylla and Charybdis choice (for anyone into literature). :-) I guess that means I have less social anxiety if I'm more depressed. hah! That's not a good trade!

I spent much of the week dealing with regret. And I was thinking about the fact that I mostly regret what I don't do rather than what I do. Usually I'm indecisive about making changes and then regret not having made them. So I decided that I'd probably end up regretting group therapy if I left it without really making it work for me (or deciding once and for all that that was absolutely impossible -- and of course I've never been convinced of that). That, coupled with depression, gave me more motivation and less social anxiety than usual. So Monday's experience was good and I talked quite a bit. I'm hoping to do the same this next week.

I sincerely hope that I don't need depression to benefit from something. I'll use it while it's available though! I mean, if I'm stuck with it anyway.....

Sidony (feeling a bit more positive about group -- you guys do know I swing back-&-forth like a pendulum on this, right?)