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Originally Posted by ~Christina
Lizzie my heart breaks for you 
My T told me over 10 years ago when my life literally imploded .. which is why I was seeing him weekly.. I cried and cried for numerous sessions and one day he reached over and put his hand on my arm and said its time to " Float" " Just float don't try to over analyze and obsess about things that right now you have zero control over"
Honestly I thought he was out of his mind, I'm a mess and he is not telling me how to manage things??? any kind of coping skill???? He didn't tell me that things would eventually work out???
That night I had been thinking hard about him telling me to float all damn day.. The only entry in my journal that night was " Float"
Sometimes we are fighting so hard to swim upstream against the current that nothing we are doing is helping, We are mentally and physically exhausted. So maybe throw your hands up and know that things are going to change. Maybe not when you want them too ( like right now) but things will.
You have been beating yourself up for long enough. Try and float give your mind a break, Just breath  |
Christina,
I don’t know how to thank you for your words. I think this is exactly what I needed to hear. I AM exhausted physically, mentally, and emotionally. My days are spent binge watching Netflix because I can’t bear to think about my son and how he and his sister have been hurt by the consequences of my illness. I will try to let go and float. I don’t know if it will be easy, but I will keep trying. Thank you for saying that I’ve beaten myself up enough. I couldn’t see that for myself.
Thank you again.