I'm so sorry...hugs, if wanted. Are you sure that was the final goodbye, not just that she needed to end session early and maybe take a bit of time off before wrapping up her practice? If she really meant that was the end, in the moment, it seems almost cruel. Please take care of yourself. I know you may be reluctant to find another T right now, but maybe having someone you could process this ending with, even just to see them for a couple months, could help?