Fuuuuuuck. This day is just plain ****.

My therapist was super nice today as soon as I walked in. I thought to myself “she’s gonna work out just fine.” Then I tell her about my eating stuff and more about the trans stuff. And she says “I don’t have experience with eating disorders and the trans thing is a bit more complicated then I realized. So maybe I should refer you to someone who could help you better.” And I didn’t get pissed off angry but I got annoyed. I said at my last place I was originally going to work with a guy 2 years older then me which I thought was going to be great. But he said I needed a different level of care because he was not qualified to work with me because of my autism. So I got switched to transference T who’s main thing was autism. Then she said that if I had stayed with her and hadn’t moved she would have had to switch me to someone who specializes in eating disorders.

So I was getting quite annoyed that this is happening once again. Because I really liked this new therapist. She said she could really only help me with the anxiety and depression part of my issues. So she gave me the name and some paperwork of some other person who she used to with work who works with trans autistic and ED people and also people with chronic health issues. And I’m just like “whatever” I am so mother ****ing tired of being shuffled from person to person. Especially when I feel like this person will work out. My current therapist told me she’ll continue to work with me if I need to be on a waiting list for this new one. But she highly highly recommends this therapist.

I am just plain exhausted from this therapy game. It feels like I’m just being handed from person to person. I’ll call that new lady when my mom gets back from the store

Also Mountain Dew came out with an online only flavor and I tried 6 times to order it, put in a few different addresses. It wouldn’t take my info and now it’s out of stock. The people who buy these types of limited edition products don’t even want to drink them. They just want to put it on eBay for hundreds of $.

I am just so so drained right now I can’t even comprehend anything.