Thanks Corbie.

I really do hope so. I hope we can find a way to end this properly, at least.

And I think you are right about people not really understanding what it feels like. Though the couple of friends and my OH that I have spoken to about it did seem to at least be very compassionate. It's very new for me to open up to people, especially about something so private, so I am proud of myself for reaching out, and I am grateful they were there.

I have emailed my Old T, maybe I will start up with her again. Maybe. I don't know right now, and maybe that's ok. Maybe I need some time too.

I am struggling to describe how I feel right now. Heartbroken. Confused.