Thank you Lonelyinmyheart. It was nice of her to come and sit with me. I wasn't expecting to see her. I wasn't expecting her to walk someone to their car.

In a way, in that moment, I saw a glimpse of the real her. And I think I needed to see that in order to understand why she has made the decision that she has. I still don't think it is the right decision, and I am still going to fight to have some sort of proper ending to this, in whatever form that takes, but I needed to see it in order to start to understand I think. She has been an absolute rock in my therapy. I needed that. I still need that, and if her world has been so shaken that she cannot be that rock, then I agree that right now we cannot do this work together, but that doesn't preclude two humans coming together to grieve the end of a relationship, in my humble opinion.

That's the bit I don't understand.