Thanks for help, guys. I might try to find out where the food banks are. It is a very tight month. I haven't had any food for my horse for four days but I have a five acre pasture that I put him in; I know he misses his grain but there isn't much else to do.

I make too much money from my SSDI to qualify for food stamps. They just look at what you make and don't take into consideration that my car broke down a couple weeks ago and had to pay the tow fee's plus the garage's fees. In 2005 I lost my SSDI and had no income at all for several months and was living in my house with no electric and they did give me food stamps then but then in 2006 they calculated I had too high an income for the year and made me pay the food stamps back.

I wish my horses would sell. That is the only thing of value I have, I'll keep trying.

I know it's a coping mechanism but it is one of the few I can use right now. Taking a xanax and going to sleep and avoiding the problems feels best. I did email the RN board to see what I need to do to get my license renewed and it sounds pretty simple but energy is very short supply right now. But at least it is a goal.