This morning I woke up at 12:40AM. I didn’t even go to bed on an empty stomach. I figured just based on how I woke up that I wouldn’t be getting back to sleep. I don’t know why I didn’t take a melatonin when I woke up. But I took one at 5 which didn’t do anything. But I had been in a good sleep routine for awhile. I just listened to music all night. Then when I got up and after I took a shower I decided to check out a Speedway which is getting an exclusive Mountain Dew. I didn’t find it but I got a bottle of Gatorade pedialyte. I don’t know what I was expecting it to do. I thought it would help with some symptom I have been having. It didn’t help or not help with anything. I think when adults drink them they use them for hangovers.

But then I went to the doctor and I felt a lot better afterwards and I got an unwich from Jimmy Johns. I’m trying just to ignore the therapy situation today. I had asked last week for a sooner session and she had a cancellation and that’s how I saw her yesterday. But then I’m still seeing her on Monday which was already scheduled. She said “you’ll come on Monday right?” And I could tell she really wants to see me on Monday. So yeah I’m still bummed about having to switch because I know she does care and I liked her.

But I’m just trying to focus on not taking a nap or lying in bed all day. I see my new primary tomorrow but I don’t think she or he, not sure which, will do much since she doesn’t need to. I just have to make sure she’s able to prescribe my injections. That’s the main thing I need a primary for and not every primary doctor can prescribe it for some reason. But the office said she can. So we’ll see.

I got the name of my primary and looked him up and he looks decent. Kinda looks like my Pdoc and looks to be about the same age. So it will hopefully go ok tomorrow. Then I can hopefully be able to be calmer for the next few days.

Do you ever have a million things going right for you and that one small thing just bugs you? I got great news today but I’m still pissed about that Mountain Dew I missed out on. I think what I’m feeling is a cognitive distortion but I’m not sure which one it is. But every time I see stuff online about it I get annoyed.

I just looked up the cognitive distortions and it looks like I’m having the magnification one. I’m blowing the whole missing the Mountain Dew thing out of proportion. So I’m trying to challenge myself and say who cares. You tried and it wouldn’t ship to your zip code anyways. It wasn’t automatically out of stock when you tried. You probably would only drink one can and give the rest to your brother. Look forward to the other new flavors coming out this year that look better. etc etc etc.