Thanks everyone.

Gosh, I cant help but catastrophisize things at this point a bit. Im so scared for my life and for jeremy possibly losing his mommy.. and me losing him if i become caregiver dependant.

Doc put me on xanax, even though its addictive because I was a MESS this afternoon at the office. I lost it. He thinks it might be because of all the tylenol I use. Well, thats what all the docs told me to take?

Going to bed now as I am one hour of sleep since yesterday morning. Praying that I wake up...