I slept SO bad last night. Took me forever to fall asleep and I just tossed and turned all night. You know when you know you’re asleep but you’re not quite all the way so you keep waking up? That was me. I decided to switch tracks and instead of listening to a tv show to fall asleep like I usually do I tried to do a sleep meditation but that did not work. It was not soothing to me. I turned on some “zen” music and tried to just focus on that instead of letting my mind jump around. It was very difficult.

I am irritable today but I know why. I’m going to exercise today. I didn’t yesterday except for a short strength training routine.

I’m trying to gather the courage to call out my mom on her possible passive aggressive behavior. I texted her about my wedding dresses and she never texted me back. I think she’s upset because she wants to be involved but how can I know that if she just ignores me? But I just don’t have it on me to be angry anymore. It will be difficult stepping out and challenging the well established dysfunctional roles in my family but I’m tired of participating.