I’ve been kinda manic today. Not sure if it’s just nerves about the surgery or the lack of food I’ve had. I also haven’t taken any Valium yet. I needed one at the doctors but I didn’t have one on me so I just sat with my anxiety and it passed. So maybe I’m not quite as addicted as I thought I was. I’ll probably take one soon because I’m wondering if the mania is a withdrawal symptom.

I just moved my stuff from my side of the shelf of the pantry to my storage rack in the garage that my mom emptied for me. And according to what I have I’ve mainly been eating a variety of different kinds of oatmeal, Goldfish crackers, and ramen for who knows how long. Those are the only 3 things I have a lot of. I know the Goldfish have been a main food group for me since last November when I started losing weight and I also eat a lot of oatmeal at times. I now have my 4 boxes of cereal that I’m hoping to add to my diet. But yeah my mom is right. I don’t eat much of anything. I have a few bags of frozen vegetables in the freezer. But I don’t eat much frozen stuff either. Today I’ve had a serving of carrot Goldfish and a bowl of Honey Nut Cheerios.