I’m seriously starting to forget transference t and I’m trying to claw my way out of these thoughts and feelings. Even though it isn’t working. Like I don’t want to forget her. but I go hours without thinking of her and when I do the thoughts just float away like clouds and I think of other things. But I don’t want her to turn into all those other people I dealt with in my life who I don’t think about anymore. I feel like transference T was different then the others. But I felt at the moment they were all different when they were really all the same. Just helpful people at that moment in my life. But honestly I have so much stuff going on now I just can’t be focused on someone I haven’t seen in 5 months.

It was really tough for 5 months but my spirt wants to move on and I think I am finally succeeding in it. But why do I still feel sad that I’ve moved on?