Lately, since this past Tuesday I have not been thinking of my transference T. And I don’t want to forget her because I feel like she was different then the other people I have worked with in the last 16 years or longer. Even though in reality she really wasn’t different then a lot of them. But she’s starting to turn into one of those people and I guess its kind of bothering me. But I’m not sure why. I thought I wanted to forget about her. And now that I am it’s freaking me out. It’s just a lot of stuff happened this week that is making me focus on what’s going on currently and I just haven’t felt like thinking of stuff from 5 months ago. When I think of her it’s kinda like absent mindlessly and then I think “oh yeah I need to tell current T about that.” Then I move on.

Why do I kind of not want to forget about her?