I’m doing ok today. I’m a bit anxious. But last night I got my shot right before I took my Geodon and right after I took my melatonin. So I just slept through my hunger. And I also didn’t have any S or SH thoughts the way I usually do when I get my shot. So I guess I really do have to switch everything to at night in order to be stable until I can get my surgery.

I woke up at 2:40. I wasn’t hungry though. I knew I couldn’t fall back asleep so I didn’t even try. I drank a zero sugar soda and listened to music for a couple hours and then around 4:30 I went and organized my dresser. I took a shower at my usual time then I watched the olympics for a few minutes before my mom and I went to Einstein bros bagels. I got the nova lox. Which is about half the price it would be at a restaurant. It tastes the same plus Einstein actually assembles it for you unlike in restaurants.

I came home and I ordered that Mountain Dew on eBay. People were saying the cans were going for $100 each. But I bought a 6 pack for $46. Which I know is still outrageous but my subscription boxes are about $4 more then that and I didn’t get one this month. So I guess it evens out. Those boxes have been really lame lately. I’ll get 3% cash back too.

I’ve noticed a Gatorade shortage recently. Every time I try to buy some the section is either empty or just has weird flavors. Today there were maybe 10 cases of various weird flavors. I just was trying to buy some cherry zero. It shouldn’t be that hard to find.

But today I feel ok. I’m glad I got the Mountain Dew but I do feel kind of guilty spending $46 on 6 cans. They were originally going for 6 cans for $12 cans but they wouldn’t ship to my zip code. Or the other 2 addresses I put in. So at least I tried before spending this much.