Dear T,
This has seriously felt like the longest 10-day stretch ever, and I'm still somehow only on day 8. The thing on Tuesday really messed me up in some ways because I felt awful the next couple days, so didn't want to leave the house or do much, which would have helped time pass faster. Session with R helped slightly, but then I felt guilty about some of what we discussed, maybe because of her reactions to some of it? I should have just talked to her about Tuesday the whole time instead of partly about you. Oh, and your email Wednesday helped as well.

I also should have planned stuff for this weekend, like a date night with H, but the way it worked out, my parents are out of town, and the other two grandparents already had watched D at some point this week. I'm glad the three of us managed to go out last night, at least, and then sat outside some at home. I suppose there's nothing to keep me from going someplace for a bit tomorrow, if H is OK with it. Even if it's just for an hour or something.

And of course I'm worried you'll change your mind about in person, either push it back indefinitely due to slightly rising numbers in our county (even though it's still really low). Or that you'll have had a possible exposure on vacation and would at least push it back a couple weeks (which of course I'd understand). Though if we can at least meet virtually, that will be something. I just have this fear that you'll end up having to cancel entirely (or I will) for some reason), and then it will be even longer. Plus, I have that other test Tuesday, which isn't generally that big of a deal to me, but I worry it will feel traumatic after this last one...

I just really miss you and want to talk to you...

Love,
LT