I’m about 10 pills short of my Valium. Which means I’ve taken 10 extra in the last month. I have 49 days left if I take just take the prescribed 3 a day. My mom says I’ll need to cut back to two a day in September. I should be able to get it refilled around September 15th. So I’m a bit nervous but not full out panicking right now. I already took all 3 of mine and it’s not even noon yet and my anxiety is still a bit sucky. I think it’s PMS because I have cramps. My mom seems unaware and not concerned that I’ve been taking extra Valium. She just thinks my anxiety is justified because of all the stuff I have going on.

I wish I could go back to work now. I’m in such a good sleep routine already. I never wake up past the time I would have if I’d be working. Also everywhere is hiring. But I wanted to go back to work in May and in June I was pretty glad I didn’t.

But I guess I’m just going to have to handle my anxiety and time on my own for who knows how long. I’m looking at October for returning to work. I’ll know more as soon as I can get a clear date from my doctor.