Yeah I counted my Valium and I am 10 pills short. So in September I’ll have to go down to 2 a day for a few days. I’m just trying not to worry about it now. But I took my 3 for the day pretty much all at one time and early and they aren’t really working. So I took my 20 Geodon around 12:30 and now I’m just exhausted. But not anxious. I have a heating pad on too and I find heat to be helpful for my anxiety. I was thinking of taking one of my anti vertigo meds earlier. I’m not dizzy but they do make me feel relaxed. Yeah I don’t always use meds the way they are supposed to be for. I can take half my night meds in half an hour. Which won’t even be mid afternoon by then. But I’m hoping to really be stable both physically and mentally by the holidays. I’m not sure what to do about my food situation today. I don’t feel like eating but it’s not anxiety related food phobia. I just don’t have any desire to eat.

I think today is just mostly PMS.