Last summer on a Saturday night, because my episodes always happen on Saturday nights, I sent an email to my therapist and it was kinda like a S note. I told her it wasn’t her fault and what happens happens and etc etc. I don’t know if I had taken any meds that night or if I was just depressed. I don’t think at that time last summer I had started taking extra meds. At our next session she told me she was really thinking of calling my mom after getting that email. Lmao. If she was that concerned she really would have called my mom. I’ve written a few others in the notes section of my phone. But it’s mostly just to vent out my feelings. I always delete them