Well, I cried in church again today though not as much as usual. It was mostly during the music. The message was on Samson and Delilah and failure so I wasn’t triggered like I have been during most messages. When I got in the car with my cousin before church, she asked me if I was okay because of my expression. I told her I was anxious about going to church like always. She wanted to know why. I told her it’s because I have anxiety, which she knows but cannot grasp what it means. She told me nothing bad would happen and to use positive self talk. This was the first time she didn’t sound judgmental when giving advice. She sounded kind. I almost cried then and struggled not to cry all the way to church. I’m crying now. Time to read or watch TV so I can turn these feelings off.