So Sorry for your Losses! Please Do not give up! Hugs. i agree with the other wise and wonderful posters about considering therapy if possible. i think it can be hard to keep going with depression especially if it's long-term so i don't think there's a surprise there but i also think it may require some work. Love. i'd suggest to try to work on yourself if that is possible. i am really happy that the other wise and wonderful posters were able to Help. Please do update us if you want to if possible. Stay Safe. Do what you can to improve if possible. Be Strong. i think you can handle. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @AgentQ9A, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!