dear t: i still am a little confounded that you didn’t bring up the breakdown phone call last week. I know I called at a busy time, but it was close to a 15 min conversation. Does one forget that? Especially as a T who remembers pretty much everything.

It’s such a topic of shame for me, money. and to be scammed out of so much. maybe that totally changes what you think of me as a person. It is one thing if i was struggling between paychecks, and you offer a sliding scale . me not to pay my co-pay for a little bit.

i dont know what i want to say.

i know i had a **** ton of money taken out bc cats, and now it is just a waiting game to see if i can get the money refunded. what if it doesn’t get approved? then we will really have to figure this out.but im scared