I just "feel" so screwed up when I cannot even answer a simple question like "how does it hurt?'. I've always known my emotions were a little off but I never realized the extent of it until I started T. I can sit there and tell my T about my horrible childhood without even tearing up much less crying. It's like I'm psycho or something. Like Kiya says I was disclined for crying so I guess that contributed to it. Other things happened to me later in life that made me not want to feel anything and now I guess it's all off. My T keeps asking me almost every session "how does X make you feel?" ....I just sit there trying to think of an answer because I have no clue. I can't even name the feelings. I have fantasies of being swallowed by the couch when the feelings question comes up.

Is there a feelings course I can take? I told my T that I need a board with feelings and pictures so I can point to the correct one when he asks. I see myself as a monkey pointing with my hairy fingers and laughing monkey style.

Banana anyone?

Peace.