For me giving gifts was because I wanted to show that I cared. I wanted a reminder of me left with Rob. He'd pick up the books and hopefully think of me too. I wanted to be a part of his life and present even when I wasn't there. I wanted my stuff in his home. Looking back now I honestly wish I hadn't even though it felt right at the time. It was multiple children's books for his birthday and Christmas so he could read (with his young daughter, a £30 gift card, shortbread, ££ chocolate. His last gift was different packets of seeds + a £3.50 chocolate bar + postage. Didn't do anything last Christmas for the first time. If I did see him in person I would also bring him cake for the first session from M&S which was around £3 each time.

None of it was needed and I wish he had kept saying no instead of giving in to me.