We talked about the transference briefly. I mentioned that video sessions were hard and I had started my transition the day after lockdown. She asked me if the transference was romantic and I said yeah but my hormones were just out of control. I also told her I felt like there was a bit of countertransference going on and how she’d email me and ask how I was feeling when I wasn’t feeling good that week. I don’t know. She didn’t ask if I had any transference with her. But I didn’t mention that I don’t have any. So not sure what she thought. She did seem to agree about the countertransference thing and that she was maybe a bit too involved with me then she needed to be. I mentioned moving on from her was very tough for me emotionally and how it wrecked my mental health for awhile.

But I did talk to her about it.