It looks like I’ll only have about 2 more sessions with this therapist until I get switched to the new one. So I didn’t hold back on stuff today. I was honest about my food and weight situation and how it was going. I mentioned inhaling a lot of zero and diet drinks every day. I mentioned the time I threw up 3 iced teas and while it was not intentional it was a bit of disordered behavior since I chugged them to avoid hunger. I told her I eat the same 4-5 foods a day. I mentioned the med situation but I didn’t mention last night because I didn’t want to go to the hospital. I mentioned my bad luck with hospitals and how I will do anything to avoid going even if just sleeping things off isn’t a very good way. She couldn’t really give me any advice on the ED or the trans stuff since she doesn’t know anything about it. The whole reason she’s switching me to this other lady. But it was nice that she just listened while I spilled my guts out for an hour and didn’t show any judgement. We talked about the transference with my old therapist and she does agree that there was some countertransference going on as well.