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Orange_Blossom said:
I noticed you've been upset with your hubby recently and that you're dealing with some serious health concerns. Maybe she has come to help relieve some of those feelings of fear and upset?

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She has come for some reason that I know......

Maybe to let me heal from the memories / feelings she holds that causes such fear of death for us both... I just hate the upset she brings with her - as I know I personally have mentally dealt with the issues, but she evidently still has the emotions involved with the issues / trauma)... those which once took me to the edge of death - via three attempted suicides when her feelings came to light.

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FYI - it was some thing that my husband did the other day that brought it all back with such force that it scared me....... and I am still trying to settle down from the fright.

FYI - and I am not necessarily saying that my husband was wrong in what he did - it just held such emotional trauma for me that I could not help but to react with the return of her.
.... he promised me that it would not become a problem again for: him - me - us.