I’m not really sure why I felt so disgusted. I know things were ok until I was put on Zoloft in 2015 which seemed to kill my sex drive even years after I got off it. I was also not told anything about sex and I had to discover things on my own. I’d have to Google a lot of things when I was like 11 because I had no idea what I was experiencing. The kids in Jr. High kinda figured out my sexuality before I did because I was always talking about the female teachers when we were in elementary school. They were not cool about it. When I finally admitted it to myself the summer between 7th and 8th grade It felt like a weight had been lifted. I came out to my mom first and she was just like “ok. Whatever makes you happy” Things were normal for a number of years until 2015 when I was on Zoloft for 3 months. Then in 2019 my injections caused started to cause me to feel things again. Now I feel pretty much ok about things.