Only 1 event triggered my PTSD the past 4 months. I think it was just me being on a toxic social media platform for me. I should have just never joined. Thank god I'm off it, i feel like a great weight is off me.
While I was riding the dragon yesterday I dived into my trauma as deep as I could. Most of my trauma is just a paranoid delusions and guilt, in other words it was over thoughts, that's it. I can forgive myself over thoughts. I still have to work on identifying my bodily reactions and emotions as I come to understand them, to identify them. It reawakened my mental emotions guys. It's amazing. I felt so much love. I could literally feel it in my brain working on my mental emotions. 9 years and saturday it reawakened everything, friends. Everything was so moving, so beautiful. I reread a few of my favorite poems, listened to all my favorite songs. This reawakaned my old self. The 9 year nightmare is beginning to end.