I decided I will invite my cousins with the knowledge that the younger one probably won’t come anyway and I’m thinking the older one and his boyfriend will be able to behave in a public social setting better than they behave around just family at our family dinners. I’m just going to subtly tell them to bring their own wine if they think there’s something specific they would like. I scoured the internet looking for advice about complicated family situations and weddings and I feel that they will not cause unnecessary drama and just because I don’t like them doesn’t mean I can’t extend an invitation. I really don’t have to talk to them much if I don’t want to since there will be plenty of other people there.

As for my ex MIL I decided I am 100% not inviting her because it would just be too weird and uncomfortable. I am going to explain why to her but after that her reaction is not my responsibility.

I had SO much trouble waking up this morning! I have no idea why! I actually only took half my normal seroquel amount. I fell asleep to a sleep story on the calm app. I had to get up to take my son to his physical and I just kept turning off my alarm. I finally forced myself out of bed believing that it very well could be 10am already. I don’t know if it was because I was dreaming but it was just so difficult. I am so concerned I will not be able to wake up in time for work in September. A week before work starts I am going to start getting up with RS at 6:30 so I get used to it.