So Sorry for what you're going through! Please Do not give up! Hugs. i agree with the other wise and wonderful posters about being So Sorry for your situation. Please do remember that you're not a failure and not worthless no matter what other people may say. Do not trust those lies. Strive to be th ebest possible version of yourself that can be. i think it can be hard if one doesn't have a support network but i'd suggest to still try your best. You deserve to be happy. Everyone does. Focus on making yourself and your Loved Ones happy. Sorry if this advice isn't really helpful. i'd also suggest to find some hobbies or dedicated a bit of your time to the ones you have already if you aren't doing that already of course. i Hope things will improve really soon for everyone. Love. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Fuzzybear, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!