I did have session with L today. It was hard. It's all we talked about. We are writing up a new document being very specific what, when, why, and who she can break confidentiality with (i.e. Pdoc only for information related to psychiatric treatment).

I cried all session. She told me I could report her to the board or I could find another therapist. Both hurt so much. It's why I know I don't want either of those. She has apologized multiple times, but it's not enough. I've done my best putting my feelings into words, telling her about SH thoughts, my negative thoughts about her, my anger, everything! But it's not enough. I don't feel like she understands. Maybe because I want her to feel what I feel? Which won't happen.

That's why I don't know what to do right now. We have session again Friday, and I did call her a few hours ago telling her about my thoughts.

Her suggestions to be were to take care of myself (play with dogs/hedgehog, sleep, etc.), and to post a thread on here for extra support.