Hugs if wanted, SP. I feel you might need to talk about all your feelings to L, like you're already doing, for as long as you need. I'm glad she is offering you extra support and trying to own up to her major mistake.

That contract on who she may contact about what etc that you're already working on with L is good.

I'm not judging L or you, and I definitely hope you can process everything and come to a conclusion in your heart that brings you peace.

If that had happened to me or many other clients of my T, any such client (facing violence, coercive control) might have literally been prevented from leaving the household to seeT for therapy. What if say... my abusive parents coerced me into giving T's email etc to them? I did have to talk with T on what she would do if my abusive brother or parents followed me to the clinic, as I've been followed before. She told me how she would ensure my confidentiality.

I gave my pdoc and T permission to talk to each other but I'd expect them to inform me they wanted to, as well as the content.

Just want to validate that it's best for both parties in the dyad to be very clear about third party contact.