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Jelzig65 · Jul 29, 2021 at 06:03 AM

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Originally Posted by Labhradha22

I definitely have a fear of rejection and abandonment too. Avoidant Personality Disorder, etc.
Sorry about what your dad said. My mother had said some pretty cruel things to me too. God rest her soul.
You'll get through this one way or another.
We all will.
I've found someone who I'm almost 100% positive could never reject me, nor I her.
We've been communicating for over two and a half years now.
Buying a train ticket this Friday from Louisiana to Pennsylvania to go meet her for the first time.
I can be very good with online communication.
Taking meds now I hope will help.
But I fear I will be very withdrawn, quiet and nervous around her.
That's ruined many relationships for me in the past.

Social anxiety that doesn't diminish with familiarity is one of my main problems.

Wish me luck.
I wish the best for you.

Thankyou for sharing some of yourself here, I appreciate it. I think its normal to be nervous with a first meet. It might feel a bit easier as you have the familiarity of talking online, you will have things to fall back on that you have talked about together. I want so much for my daughter to have that someone in life. Her social anxiety and with having Aspergers leaves her very withdrawn. I know you will be fine and if you are like me and many others, you might go over things in your mind. It will be fine and I wish you luck and all the best.