So Sorry you're going through this! Please Do not give up! i am not sure if it's mania but if it bothers you and happens often i'd suggest to contact your pdoc and/or therapist. i agree with the other wise and wonderful posters that there may be other reasons at play as well. Hugs. Please do try your own best as well. Be Safe. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Mountaindewed, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!