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I guess in a way I really want to know. I want to know that I am not "damaged goods"....that I can actually be "normal" so to speak.

I'd like to know others who have actually been through similiar experiences who live happy lives......I just pretend to be happy.....what I wouldn't give to be "real"...


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You are real. I think your sig hints at that:

Courage is not the absense of fear but the ability to look fear in the eyes

(Actually, I think it may take a while before you can actually look it straight in the eyes. That is not something I can quite do yet. Most of the time I look at it a bit aslant. But that is better than before!)