I definitely want to keep investing into this relationship. Her honesty IS trustworthy. That is number one in our relationship, and I trust her with that.

Thank you for sharing your experience! I'm glad it worked out for you. I hope it works out for L and me too. Like she said to me: we have 27 months invested into this relationship. There have been ups and downs, but overall good, positive, healthy growth. I want more than anything to move forward. I do go back and forth between trusting her and not trusting her, and pain vs joy. Last session she offered me a hug. Before we hugged, we identified that what she did was wrong, and that the hug was meant to comfort me; not her. And it didn't mean everything was okay. I felt a lot of mixed emotions in that hug, but ultimately it felt good and safe and connecting. Maybe that's why I have more hope than earlier this week: because I could still feel our bond and connection.