So Sorry for your Losses! Please Do not give up! Hugs. i agree with the wise and wonderful TerryL about being So Sorry that you weren't explained what happened. i do Hope things will improve really soon for everyone. Are you currently seeing therapists? i feel like that may Help because from what you wrote it does seem like you're going through a lot. In any case it is good that you're already venting to the people you trust and trying to get help fromy our doctor i think. i Hope you will then get the help you're looking for then. Please do updated us if possible if you want to. i apologize for not seeing this thread sooner. Please do continue posting if possible if you want to. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @AgentQ9A, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!