So Sorry you're going through this! Please Do not give up! i agree with the wise and wonderful Britedark about being So Sorry for your situation. It seems like things are being pretty difficult. Have you tried to talk to your husband about this and how unhappy you are? It seems like now may be a good moment to bring this up for your Family as well. Perhaps you may suggest couple counseling if he's willing to try it although if he doesn't want therapy it may be hard. i think he should definitely consider therapy since this is affecting you too as well as the Family it seems so i'd suggest to make him understand that therapy may prove necessary for your Marriage right now. Hopefully he will understand and try to improve things for himself and his Family. Please do update us if possible if you want to. i Hope things will improve really soon for everyone. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @NotJanice, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!