Thanks TerryL! I continue to appreciate your support and input.

I got a text from my brother last night that said that he thought I could live to a ripe old age if I chose to. I initially wanted to respond with something about not believing that or whatever, but I paused a second and realized that, that tends to be my default response to bad situations. Not believing it will turn out in my favor. Now, I haven't just suddenly flipped a switch and changed my thoughts, I still don't necessarily think things will be OK. What I have decided to do was to try to live each day that I do have as well as I can. To spend more time with my dogs, to tell the people in my life how I feel about them, etc.

The universe will determine my fate, but I can determine how I respond. I may only have a few days or weeks or maybe years or decades, who knows, but my dogs will have good memories of our time and my people will know how I feel. It's all I can do. How can it be a wasted life, if I've given all of the love I have?

Thanks again to everyone offering support. You've saved my life.