I’m getting a personal package from Amazon and Amazon always delivers late. I checked when I came home from getting coffee and it’s saying it will be here in about an hour! My mom hasn’t left yet but she will in a few minutes. So hopefully she leaves before it gets here. That’s some straight up Murphy’s law **** though. The one time I need a package to come later it comes early in the morning.

Well she’s gone and it hasn’t arrived yet. I am so exhausted I’m not even really thinking of the doctor hopefully calling today. Although I’m sure that’s the main reason I’ve been so off these past 9 days. I’ve had caffeine today but zero food. I’m doing laundry now and then I’ll take a long hot shower since it’s been about 3 days since I properly showered or put on clean clothes. I feel so physically dirty. I sprayed air freshener while cleaning my room and now my feet and my plastic Birkenstock’s are all sticky. And I’m super sweaty. I’m wearing sweat pants in 100 degree heat

I haven’t had anything to eat since 4PM yesterday but food is not on my mind right now

And all the people who are giving Simone Biles a hard time and calling her a quitter can go shove it.

I took a hot shower while the washer was still going and put shorts and a t shirt on. My feet are still sticky but now all the floors are sticky because of my shoes. I’ll probably put on socks. I made instant oatmeal but I screwed it up. I’m always screwing up instant oatmeal and I’m not even sure what I’m doing wrong. How can someone mess up instant oatmeal.

I kind of feel like passing out right now. I just feel super winded. I’m Not sure if it’s sleep, food or med related. Or just anxiety. I’m getting my shot tomorrow night instead of tonight. I don’t know if I’m feeling crappy because of that. I have no idea how to give it to myself though. And if you give yourself a shot the wrong way is that bad? My brother is here though. In case I do pass out. I keep getting these hot flashes and then I get cold. I’ve had 2 Valium today. No Geodon though. Maybe I should go take my 20mil.

I took the 20mil. I’m just waiting for it to kick in. My package still hasn’t come yet. Good job giving me even more anxiety Amazon for saying it was gonna be here an hour ago.

Now it’s saying 10 stops away. Which could mean another hour. My 20mil Geodon seems to be slowing down my anxiety and racing thoughts but it’s just making me feel more exhausted physically. I don’t think I’ll be able to take a nap though.