I want to email you but I guess there’s no point to it? You said I could email you when I hear back about my surgery but I haven’t gotten the call yet. So basically I just want to email you because of how anxious I am. And I feel like that’s crossing boundaries I don’t want to get caught up in again.

But I’m anxious and I’m trying to give myself the support I need. Which basically means taking meds and using distraction.