So Sorry about what you're going through! Please Do not give up! Hugs. i agree with the wise and wonderful seesaw that it is Ok to feel. If you suspect to have c-ptsd i think a pdoc or therapist may be able to help you with that. Much Love. i Hope things will improve really soon for everyone. Please do update us if possible if you want to. i'd suggest to try to do things to distract a bit like reading or watching some movies. Be kind to yourself and everyone else as you Hopefully are already. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @WovenGalaxy, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!