I use a pacifier and a bottle. I know it’s not everyone’s thing, but for me because I’m autistic and I have an oral fixation, these things can be a lifesaver at times. I used the bottle so much yesterday my anxiety was completely under control after 11AM and I also wasn’t drinking any soda or getting too hungry so I dropped a couple pounds from yesterday.

I told my therapist on Monday about them and she was cool and had no problem but I told her I was worried I was becoming dependent on them.

You can find all this stuff on Amazon.

I was reading a lot yesterday. I’m reading 2 non fiction books at once. I have 3 fiction books on my shelf I want to read. A Clockwork Orange, Winesburg Ohio, and The Grapes Of Wrath. I’m also thinking of buying Gone With The Wind from Amazon. I used to have 6 full bookcases of books 7-8 years ago. Then I downsized over the years and now I’m down to one almost full shelf on my small bookcase. But I write down the books I read. At least I did from 2009 until the end of 2017. I read 6 books in 2018 and then I read 3 in 2019. I have down the books I’ve read since November in the notes section of my phone. But I should probably add them to my notebook.

Edit: based on the “what are you reading” thread I was able to look back at my old posts and write down the books I read in 2018 and 2019. In late 2020 I read 5 books and now i’m on my 17th and 18th book this year. That is more then 2018, 2019, and 2020 combined and it’s not even August. I was just getting super distracted by my chest and my dysphoria would act up every time I looked down and I wouldn’t be able to concentrate because I’d be upset. Once I got my surgery the problem was instantly solved and I went back to reading a lot.