I placed a grocery order on Thursday for pickup today. My mom will get it on her way home. And they are out of a lot of stuff. I ordered 4 different kinds of rice cakes and they are out of all those. How can a store be out of rice cakes? Also the orange Vanilla Coke Zero I ordered is out of stock. I’ve been looking for that for a couple months. For once in my life I’m getting low on soda because all I drink is zero sugar and it’s for some reason been very hard to find lately. I know Coke Zero is rebranding their cans. So maybe that’s it. But it’s not just Coke, it’s Pepsi and Dr. Pepper too.

But they had all my ramen and Goldfish crackers and European chocolate. They had to substitute one of pack of Gatorade. Which is slightly annoying. But mainly it’s just the soda I was looking forward to.

But at least the Mountain Dew I ordered on EBay finally shipped last night and it will be here on Tuesday instead of next Saturday like it was originally scheduled. I don’t drink regular soda anymore but I’m dying to try this kind. But I’ll probably give some of the cans to my brother.

My anxiety is kinda sucky but I probably should take my 20mil Geodon. When I use my non meds coping skills my anxiety is ok but my brother is up now so I’ll have to close the door if I want to use them. He doesn’t care if I close the door or not. He doesn’t wonder at all what I do. I brought my package into the house yesterday, a decent size box, right by him and all he did was give me a confused look.

Edit: like the last 2 days I seem to be feeling more alert and less anxious and depressed now then I did this morning. I’m not sure what the issue has been or why I feel better suddenly. I’ve only had oatmeal today but I’ve had 3 bowls of it. One was just regular maple and brown sugar. The other 2 bowls were Trix flavored. It tastes exactly like the cereal. I also got Cocoa Puffs and Cinnamon Toast Crunch oatmeal at the same time.

I saw that the store I got the grocery pick up from had Vanilla Coke Zero so I asked my mom if she wouldn’t mind running into get me some. They had it so at least I have that now. She told me she had a lot of fun at her reunion. I’m glad she’s getting a break from all her stress even though I’m not really getting a break from mine. But since she’s the glue that holds everyone together it’s better that she’s not stressed then me.