I'm freaking out a lot right now. My friend is away for the weekend and won't be back until Monday, but I don't know when. I would really like to have the option of getting my dogs somewhere safe. Just the option would help me calm down. They had shots but will have a followup in a couple weeks and then another couple before they can be kenneled. I am so worried for them right now. I do NOT want them to go with me if that's my ultimate decision.

So, so afraid right now. Not for me because I'm ready to go, but for my dogs. They don't deserve to go with me. They've done nothing but be supportive of me.

Sorry to be a downer. I just want my dogs to be safe right now.

Edit: Got some information that has me calming down. I guess my anxiety makes it seem like everything is terrible and I'm dying right now. As I get closer to my birthday and outliving my dad, it seems to get worse. The universe has 5 weeks to kill me. Breathe.