So Sorry you're struggling! Please Do not give up! i Hope you're feeling better now. i agree with the other wise and wonderful posters that treatment can be important even when one feels stable to take care and prevent other episodes. Love. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Moose72, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!