Hi there…
So this is a bit awkward for me. I’m T, the so-called “host” LA has been talking about here. Firstly, I want to say thank you to all the kind replies, I’m sure LA thinks the same.

Honestly, I’m still not convinced I’m not just making all this up. A lot has been happened this year. Got new “fresh start” (new apartment in a new city, a new job, new people, trying meds for depression), and I am terrified of muffing it up because I’m not always me. I feel like someone has been stealing my time a lot more lately. I’m terrified when I find new bruises & marks, or new items in my home I know I didn’t buy, etc. I’m terrified about opening up to a therapist and being told I’m crazy. Not doing something doesn’t help, but I feel paralyzed by my fears.

I hope you all are doing better than how I’m feeling.