Tough crowd tonight.

Yes,he's aware of how I feel. My intention in that paragraph was to tell all he does for me. I do drive. Just not to the ketamine clinic and back. See if you can drive numb. He's not a damn taxi service.
He gets a wife who would die of a broken heart if anything ever happened to him. He gets an excellent cook and my appreciation for starters. He's my best friend and my soul mate. Yeah, it's not great right now but it's tolerable. Oh, and I gave him his son he always wanted.